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Clearing the Mind/Shrinking the Ass

So if I am really, really going to do this, this time, I need to get some stuff out of my system. Like the million times I have tried and failed to loose weight and keep weight off. I think Miss Lucy would agree. It is time to clear the shelves of my mind of those ideas I have about what is possible. So here is some of my mental clutter. I’m dumping it into the internet because I don’t want it any more. Now just promise me that you’ll be careful, not to get any on you!
My first dieting memory is my mother. I remember the stockpile of cottage cheese and grape fruits. The smell of bacon and eggs in the morning as she dived head on into Atkins. The weekly booklets as she weight watcher’ed. The repetitive cycle of dieting. And I decided that loosing weight is hard, keeping it off is harder and nothing works. And so I have lived into this. 

I have dieted on and off since I was very young. I remember being put on a diet by my parents. And being pretty darn upset about that. To be singled out. I felt named and shamed in front of my siblings. My family. I don’t hold this against my parents. I was a fat kid. They were doing what they thought was best. What I decided right then, was that I was a disappointment. A failure. The one child, out of three, they were ashamed of. And so when I have tried, I tried for them. To make them proud. And, in time, I failed. Just as I knew I would. I was a failure.

I remember being bigger than other kids. Always taller, wider. Bigger feet and hands. Even a bigger head. My family has a saying that you don’t get Shetland Ponies out of Draft Horses. In some ways, genetically, we are big. In others, we band together and support each other in bad habits. Not exercising, eating badly and too much, drinking too much… And I worry sometimes about not fitting in, if I do what it will really take to be fit. Really. Like they wouldn’t love me as much or something. Crazy talk. But strangely convincing in the confines of the mind. 

So there you go, Fat to Fit’ters. I’m here. I’ve aired some of my dirty laundry. That totally makes me one of you. Embrace me and give me your best secrets. If you please. Especially if you have an ultra speedy way to magically drop 40kg. I would be particularly interested to hear that. Not joining in but like too? Click that little button below and off you’ll go. 

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10 responses to “Clearing the Mind/Shrinking the Ass”

  1. Megan Leslianne Avatar
    Megan Leslianne

    In my experience, although both exercise and diet are important and doing both will give you the best results – eating better works more effectively than exercising more.Running or walking for an extra 30 minutes won't do much if you're still eating the same kinds of foods. But keeping the same level of activity up (even if that only means the regular 10 minute walk to the bus each day) yet eating healthy DOES do something.Also: I'm built heavy in the sense that I'm tall, have broad shoulders, a high waist, large boobs and a classic "apple" shape – and I've found that cycling and cardio is the most effective form of exercise for me. Not sure if the same goes for you.

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  2. Stephanie Avatar
    Stephanie

    Hey Melissa! It's great meeting you! Thank you for visiting my blog! I look forward to following your journey. :)

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  3. The Fat Lady Avatar
    The Fat Lady

    Ah, we can be FTF'er virgins together :)

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  4. Finding The Thin Within Avatar
    Finding The Thin Within

    Thanks for the comment on my blog =) That is one of the reason's I'm trying to lose weight as well. My biological clock is TICKING! I don't want to be left 40 years old fat and with no kids. Best of luck to you! I'll be reading. =)<3 Katiewww.katie-fttw.blogspot.com

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  5. Lucy Avatar
    Lucy

    Oh Mel, so glad you wrote all this out, so glad you are Fat to Fittin' and so glad you linked up.Your post is wonderful. Now that you have got all the "why" out of your system, you can simply choose for this time to be a success.xx

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  6. Rianna Avatar
    Rianna

    I dont really feel comfortable commenting on this topic so I'll just say I hope you get what you want. And drink 2 lts water a day (more if you excercise)… cells need maximum hydration, so do our brains, for optimal health.Lottsa love xoxo

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  7. Babes Mami Avatar
    Babes Mami

    You are amazing! I may need to write my own post for the how/what/why soon.Good luck, now that you have it out you should be very successful!

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  8. Kamarine Avatar
    Kamarine

    I remember being put on diets by my mother as a kid. Except I wasn't overweight as a kid. I wasn't skinny but I wasn't where I am now.Oddly enough the overweight came after that when I discovered comfort eating. If you don't mind I would love to do a similar post.It was my first week on this blog hop too. :) Hopefully we can achieve together.Thank you for such an honest and wonderful post.

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  9. River Avatar
    River

    I've put on weight in the last seven years due to emotional over eating. Now that he's gone, I'm a lot less stressed, so eating less too. But still eating the wrong foods. So no weight loss for me yet. I'm waiting for "the moment". I've had it before and will recognise it when it comes. There's just "something", one day I'll wake up and it will be no junk anymore day. I'll look at the chocolate, the biscuits, the lollies and realise I just don't want them and reach for an apple instead.

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  10. MultipleMum Avatar
    MultipleMum

    I'm impressed that you have thought all that through and are able to write it with such clarity. Well done you! I'm so over not quite finishing. I am trying again and this time I am going to finish the job. In my 'healthy weight range'. I will look forward to reading your stories :)

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