Since arriving in Sydney on Friday I have been traveling, shopping, partying or generally hanging about. It’s difficult but not impossible to stick to limited sugar living this kind of life. I am armed with my research and I know what foods to aim for and which to avoid.
Not that I always have.
I followed the party food is for parties rule this week. Saturday night I had a Lindt macaroon and a cupcake. I enjoyed them a little (thanks to opting for the less sweet version of both – hello lemon meringue!). It was fun to not have to answer the awkward questions, dodge the sweets platter and not get that weird ‘you’re killing my party buzz’ vibe. But that wasn’t why I did it.
For once, it was a conscience decision to have them. Not driven by wanting desperately, not wanting to say no AGAIN or needing them. I just chose to have one. And it was as simple as that. It no longer felt like a fail. It felt like a choice. There is something really liberating about that. Maybe you all know what I’m talking about. But it was an ah ha moment for me.
I feel like a grown up. In control and healthy.
And yes I’ve had more sweets during my time here than I would be having at home, of course. I’m outside of my carefully structured environment. But I am making good choices, doing what I can to stay low sugar and enjoying myself. The take home pack of macaroons and leftover cupcakes haven’t helped. Haha!
Always important to note after eating sugar, YOU WANT MORE. And more, and more still. It’s like someone switches the greedy switch. All of a sudden you are waking up and requesting a cupcake for breakfast just to get you through the drive home. Addiction is addiction whether it’s ciggies, booze, drugs or sugar. Addicts are addicts.
And on THAT cheerful note, here we are. The official two month mark. And I think for me the cravings for sugar have lessened to the point where I could go a coffee or cheese or popcorn easily in its place. And mostly, I do. I find I get less headaches from having the very occasional item with sugar in it. I don’t feel restricted or cut off at all.
I’m exactly where I’d hoped I’d be.
Onward and upwards.
Suger 
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