I have been mulling over something in my head since I spoke to my doctor a few weeks back. And I wanted to run it past you as a concept. My doctor and I both agree that falling pregnant and staying pregnant will be easier if I lose some weight. I am talking 10 – 20kg (just as I was at the start of the year, where did those 7 months go!) and he said even as little as 5kg will help things along, probably, and if not than I’ll feel better for it anyway.
So, I quit. I give up trying to get pregnant and thinking about it and talking about it and all that. I give up making moon’ey eyes at babies and casting envious sideways glances at pregnant women. I give up knowing how this is going to go for us. My focus for the next six months is to lose as much weight as I can and give making a baby another go in the new year. There is a part of me that is really sad not to be going ahead full steam but another part of me is relieved. But mostly…
I am sick of trying! So I quit.
In fact it didn’t seem that clear of a decision before I started typing. I just had to go back and delete the intro that included a call to comment on what you think of it as an idea. But I’ve decided now. So while I welcome your comments and feedback as always, there’s no debate for me now. I’m done until I lose some weight.
Sooooo. Miss Lucy can expect me more often in her fat to fit blog thing because it’s time to whip not just my ass but my life into shape. It’s messy around here (not literally, Sharon was only here Friday giving it the clean of it’s life). It’s time to metaphorically clean house. To create a space for our baby to show up. Doesn’t that just sound like the thing that there is to do right now…?
So off I go. On my adventure that means, let’s face it, I get some control back. I think that could be the hardest thing about the months stacking up and up and up in this trying to conceive game. Zero control. Which as a human being makes me a little crazy, I’ll be honest. Soooo, tell me, when have you been happy to be a quitter?
Suger 
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