So here we are {We being Hubby AND I as he decided to join in the fun too}. Third weekend of five during our Dry July experience. I did Ocsober last year and I thought this would be a breeze. Not so much. Given the change in the whole working situation I have a lot more time on my hands.
And no, I haven’t turned into a cliche longing for a 10am drink.
I have time to think. All day. Well, most of the day. And then at night. It isn’t that we have stopped going out or doing anything but we have gravitated a little more to home. So in the loooong quiet {sober} hours it gives you plenty of time to think.
About life and what you want out of it. About what you’ve lost. About ALL that you have. Deep, I know, but it is constantly surprising to me how much we {I say WE here but if this doesn’t include you, remove yourself} numb ourselves from this process.
And it isn’t all together terrible. It’s kind of nice. I feel like I am reformulating a plan for my future. Because of the job people, not because I’m not drinking in July. I’m doing it. I’m going after the life I want. Stuff the rest. I am going to create the life I want, starting now.
I am the girl making a plan. Watch this space for the girl WITH a plan.
SIDE NOTE: I think this space, this process had a bit to do with last nights post. A post that just bubbled up and spilled out. A post that was about as honest as I have been with myself for a while. So thank you for your kind words. We are ok. Under no immediate threat or tragedy. Well no more than anyone right this second. We are healthy, well and safe. So are our families and friends.
Suger 
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