I was just staring at this page for a really, really long time. I yawned a little. Stared off into the distance at nothing in particular. I know that because I was wearing my glasses and things get a little blurry off in the distance with them on. Nothing was there. It was lovely. A quiet moment of silence. And then, it was gone. By having the thought the silence had disappeared.

I was back. Back in my seat. Back surrounded by bustling people. There’s a metaphor or something there about not knowing what you’ve got until it’s gone. Or taking time to smell the roses or something. I’m not sure I’m in a very good position to elaborate. I’m not even sure it needs to be elaborated on. It was there and once I realised it was there, it was gone. Today the silence was a break from the running commentary in my head. A welcomed and much-needed break.

The nothing, the silence is lovely. The negative commentary in your head, is not. It’s a bit the same though. Sometimes I find myself sitting there having a go at myself. Silly. Pointless. Lazy. Boring. Guilty. Sneaky. Cheat! And then I hear it. I notice it. And it’s gone. Until I listen for what it’s saying, it’s just there. I think you have problems when you don’t notice it. When it just runs like a bad cd in the background of your life. Forming your view of things, of people and especially of yourself. You might not even realise that it’s full of it after a while. Or worse you could agree with it!

But don’t do that, it’s a jerk, really.
No, really, it is.

Hope for moments of silence.

Melissa Walker Horn

Hi! I’m Melissa Walker Horn. Around here, they call me Suger. I’m the Chief Blogger and doer of all the things here at Suger Coat It. Blogging since 1901; I love a casual ootd, taking photos, and writing about things that irk or inspire me. I love wine and cheese, long days at the beach and spending time with my family. I make stuff for the internet over at Chalkboard Digital. You know, living the sweet life.