So it turns out I have moved on from cranky to a hormonal grouchy. At least this explains a lot. The whole the sky is falling feeling of last week is lifting and I’m feeling more myself. Laughing more. Less weighed down. What a relief. I haven’t suffered a major bout of depression in almost 10 years. I worried, silently for the last couple of weeks that I wasn’t going to escape another. That I was watching a coming soon preview of the way life would be for a while. It’s a relief to be relived of that pressure.
It’s a reminder that not everyone is so lucky.
It reminds me that some live with that pressure, the weight, every day.
It reminds me that once I did too.
It reminds me not to take the clear days for granted.
It’s late. I missed RUOK Day. I wasn’t ok. I was hiding out.
Today I am okay. Better than okay.
Grouchy but okay.
Tired but okay.
Loved and cherish and blessed and okay.
Today I can ask you.
Are you ok?
Hi! I’m Melissa Walker Horn. Around here, they call me Suger. I’m the Chief Blogger and doer of all the things here at Suger Coat It. Blogging since 1901; I love a casual ootd, taking photos, and writing about things that irk or inspire me. I love wine and cheese, long days at the beach and spending time with my family. I make stuff for the internet over at Chalkboard Digital. You know, living the sweet life.