Last night I worked until 3 am or so. I slept well but not for long enough and after a busy day today I was on the couch killing half an hour or so before dinner and dozed off. Nanna style. I must’ve been asleep for about 20 minutes or so when Hubby loudly entered the room, in the way it drives me nuts that he does and woke me. I knew then I was in trouble.
You knew as soon as you read the title of this post I was in trouble. Yes?
We’ve all done it, the dropping off to sleep and basically ruining any chance you had of an early night to recoup the sleep you missed the night before that made you so tired that you did the dropping of to sleep thing in the first place. You still with me? It’s bad news and I knew it immediately is my point. So when the dishes from dinner were packed away I looked over at Hubby and realised he was about to head to bed, I was wide awake and so I might as well do something productive.
So I did. I did all the things. I moved around some categories on the blog, I dragged out two dusty old drafts and got them ready for a second look and I drank about 2 litres of water because I felt a little behind for the day and tasting my dinner over and over again wasn’t such an appealing thing, trust me. Bad choice for dinner Suger, really bad. Horrible. There were emails sent, things followed up and movies watched as background noise.
Saturday night, I owned you.
Then once again as I found myself here, blankie over my knees to keep out the cold, I thought I should open a post and see what comes out. I should just write something for the sake of writing because I am here, wide awake and I have a blog. why not, right? One thing I found over the last few days was my love of blogging. I hadn’t actually realised it was gone until this new burst of energy arrived. Strange, right?
I had forgotten to enjoy my blog for the grassroots reasons that I get to share my life here, I get to create SOMETHING and it’s fun. It’s so much fun. I was setting up a blog for a client this week and her joy about the entire process, the excitement and thrills reminded me of my first time. My first 100, 200, 300 likes on Facebook. The time someone commented on my posts for the first time. The time I discovered that there was an entire culture of people out there who shared their lives, expertise and skills online for free.
And what thing that is!
I was at a lunch with some fellow Sunshine Coast bloggers Friday and the topic of YouTube came up. Not just in the sense of creating an audience there or blog traffic or anything but the general usefulness of it. We had all, every single one of us at that table, learnt something new on YouTube. We had all expanded our abilities, our knowledge and for me, my heart because all I watch are Soul Pancake productions mostly Kid President.
I’d forgotten my place in that I think. Taken myself too seriously and decided that blogging was serious business that I had to knuckle down to achieve. And while I thought I was getting all the things I wanted, lining all those ducks in a row, what I was getting was more of my old version of things. The serious grown-up version that I talked about in my Un-Serious post. It had shown up again. I had sucked the life and the fun out of it.
Classic Suger. Sucking all the fun. Sucking in general.
But then I saw this thing that I didn’t know was in my way and all of a sudden it wasn’t anymore. I wanted to immediately overhaul everything. So I did. I gave the blog a new look. I did the things I mentioned above and I told myself that sometimes for no reason other than to write something I would write stuff and post it. I feel wide-eyed and excited again. About my blog, about life, about the things I’ve said yes to.
I hope a little bit of that enthusiasm seeps through the page to you this Sunday morning. I hope it washes over you and does its thing to enliven you. Excitement like inspiration should be contagious, super-duper contagious. And if you’re not feeling it yet, picture for a moment a kitten rubbing itself against your leg, now imagine that kitten is me and I’m rubbing… Wait. That doesn’t sound right at all. Jeebus! Moving on.
You and all of your rubbing blogging mojo. I don’t know how to describe where I’m at with blogging at the moment. I have mojo but it’s not resulting in posts. I’m posting about twice a week at present, this week only once. The thing is I have loads of exciting stuff happening with my brand, and it’s taking a lot of time and energy. I want to be sharing, but I’m playing it safe at present. You know that thing where you want to line things up in a creatin way and make sure it’s going to go down the right way? Well yeah it’s that. I have ideas, plans and posts I need time to slow a little and let the crazy out of my head and onto the screen and back to flowing out a few times a week.
My rubbing blogging mojo indeed. I was like, eeeek, this is getting awkward. Haha. Sometimes mojo happens off the page, I’d go with it and not give it a second thought. But one day, not too far in the future, it might be worth taking a small break and giving us an update. We, the readers of your blog, love a good update.
I miss my blogging mojo.
I haven´t posted anything other that outfit posts for ages. Everytime I even think about writing the wheels in my head start turning and going “this isn´t important!” “why would anyone want to read about this?” “aren´t I supposed to write something inspirational, that makes people feel better or gives them some food for thought?” “I´m suppost to be writing Importat Stuff!”. And then I´m left staring at my keyboard and doing nothing, really.
I wish I could un-serious myself and my blog, and have fun with it again. Guess my mojo would be back sometime, right?
I’ve had this before. That voice in your head is bullshit. Total bullshit. Write whatever comes to you, what’s important to you right then. The rest is just getting in the way. I promise you that. And yes, the mojo will be back.
Something in the water– I’m totally feeling the blogging bug. Outfit of the day posts are easy– but to BLOG about something that is important to you? Something that is just part of you? It’s so hard to pinpoint exactly WHAT it is that is so important, and then put it into words I’ve stumbled and stopped so many times. I’m learning. It’s hard.
I recently took the time to THINK about how I see style, and then all of a sudden my colours series came into light. My favourite posts are the ones where I’ve had to think and be genuine and to be mindful of how I write– like my power of words post. It’s my favourite to date.
Look at what your blog post has done. I’m sitting here, wiiiide awake after a poorly planned tea late at night. Look at this. This is a blog post. On a comment. On a blog post that is entirely unrelated. Late night inspiration, huh?
Something in the water indeed. That bug it’ll get you. Watch out. Haha. Look what this post has done indeed. Late night inspiration and blogging philosophising are the best. Let’s do it more often. 😉