{Weight Watchers provided me with 6 months membership to their Unlimited program for editorial consideration as per my disclosure policy}

When I started Weight Watchers a month ago I was determined that this would be IT. I would once and for all make a move towards loosing all the weight that I no longer wish to carry. Not sure I ever did, but that’s beside the point. In conjunction with the gym this was going to be it. I was committed! It turns out, I was sort of committed. I was committed when it suited me. I did what I wanted the rest of the time.

Do you know that for 2 out of 5 weeks I drank in excess of 100 points worth of booze? Oh you didn’t? Well I did. Once at the races, and once at a memorial hockey game. It takes a pretty committed person to drink that much, let me tell YOU. But it’s just not very good for the whole weight loss thing. Each week I tell myself, lay off the booze drunkie. And mostly I do. Until I don’t and the only one to blame is me.

I also offered to buy a friend’s kitchen scales about 4 weeks ago and am yet to pick them up.

And then there are the times when my sister got sick so I just didn’t go to the gym.

Or when my new shoes gave me a blister so I skipped that session.

Or I’d planned to make breakfast muffins but ate McMuffins instead.

Or when all I wanted in the world was a decent cupcake and couldn’t get one so I ate the house down instead.

Sometimes I wonder about the seriousness of my pact to myself. Sure things are moving in the right direction. Sure I feel good. But the emotional roller-coaster {and I know I am not alone on this} is a big one. Committed, not. Committed. NOT. committed…. nooooooot. I’m more committed than not though. Perhaps that’s the secret to winning this game. Being committed more often than not. Being able to recoup and start again. Brush off, stand back up and get back on that gosh darn horse.

So I missed weigh in last night because of this dread super flu type thing I picked up late Sunday evening. But I’m back on that horse. Aiming for a 2kg loss next Monday {one per week} and determined to meet my commitments at the gym, eat clean and lay off the freaking booze. I am determined to be more prepared and to cook more often this week. To know my portion sizes and to pick up the scales and get weighing. It’s time to reaffirm that commitment and hit that first 10kg target. It’s go time baby.

3.7kg lost to date. Weighing in with shoes on. Now. 

  • I feel for you, I am having the same issues with my “Half” journey. Why is it so hard 🙁

  • Amanda B

    Im like you! i commit then dont follow through, mainly when Im alone and dont have to answer to anyone what Im eating, I justify! Its a nasty, nasty cycle. I watched a utube video last night, 1.5.hrs long actually (a US docco) of the 700pd woman and her 7 yrs of going through weight loss after banding (why i watched it, i dont know).. The skinny her commented that even though she was now skinny she had demons from when she was fat, her mind is still fat regardless of all the weight she had lost and that she still could eat as terribly as she once use to. I am trying (hard!!! I promise) to re train my mind, as she is right, you can get skinny and look fab but if you dont think positive and you get rid of those demons of excessive drinking, snacking, junk food cravings – you’ll end up right back where you use to be. I went to get subway for lunch today, at alternate to my macca’s run! and although I have been good lately and getting a 6 inch instead of a foot long and for going the bacon and two sauces, today I had a fight with my head, my head wanted a foot long (i was hungry) but i kept reminding myself i was getting healthy for a good cause and this wasnt going to help and then my head was trying to justify the foot long, no bacon, one sauce, heaps of salad.. you know – healthy, right? Im pleased to say, I WON! I got a 6 inch and felt amazing after wards, full and satisfied and pleased with myself for not folding to my food demons. I dont go to the gym and im not a member of jenny or WW but Im going try, really freaking hard to make this work.. so thats my thoughts… Keep on going lovely lady – we will both be better for it – we will still be the great people we are fat or thin but im sure we’ll feel better when we arent carrying around an extra few kgs…
    Good Luck xxx

    • I hear you Amanda. Every six inch win is a win. For sure. It is about reprogramming and retraining your habits more than anything, I think. Good luck to us both. We can do this thing.

  • I hear you sister. I committed to weight watchers, then committed to putting all the weight and more back on. I got a treadmill last week. Me and it are gonna live happily ever after.

    • I hope you and the treadmill live happily ever after. I’m sure you will. xo

  • Lisa Barton-Collins

    100 points in Booze? Bwahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!! Thanks for the belly laugh!
    3.7kg’s is nothing to be ashamed of. It took ages to put the weight on, it will take a reasonable amount of time to lose it. Be kind to yourself! And, a little bit of what you like does you good (and stops you eating the house down). Last two words for you: Vodka+Soda.

    • Dude, don’t laugh, you’re just encouraging me! HA. And I know all about vodka soda. It’s 3 points per nip by the way. 2 for rum and diet coke. More for champers and white wine.

      Thank you. It’s a start, and a good one at that, for sure. Everything in moderation, right?

  • Hey Mel, it is hard whether it be loosing weight or just training, to do it with out a set commitment of something. When I was doing triathlons, the only way I could commit to training was to enter a race, that way if you didn’t train, it showed and you would perform really bad in the race.
    I am not saying you have to do it,lol. but a radio station down here has started a good “commitment keeper” you get a photo taken in your underwear, then you pledge how much you will loose in the time allotted. If you don’t loose that much, your photo goes up on the web page!
    P.S hope your feeling well soon 🙂

    • OMG. That sounds terrible! Terrifying and terrible. Haha. But I get the sentiment behind it. It’s time to set some concrete goals. Some measurable results out there in the future. There will be no interwebs photos though. 😛

      I’m feeling better. Much. Attempting the slow go at the gym tomorrow. Wish me luck.

  • I am so much like you in everything you just said! “Lay off the booze drunkie” could be my new mantra! All I can say is good luck and You.Can.Do.It!!

    • Thanks Thea. I knew we were kindred spirits. Absolutely.
      Wait. Not, like the vodka. 😛