Do you find yourself repeating the same mistakes, thinking the same things and even doing the same things over and over expecting a different result? Pretty sure there is a definition of craziness in there somewhere. Do you ever feel like you could doing anything if only it was easier? Or had more time? Or, you know, anything like that? 

Well I have been thinking about all of it as I cram my already full life with a full time job. I have been talking to a coach on the program I am participating in and she has been talking a lot about performance. As coaches often do.

According to her performance as a willingness to do whatever it takes, to go that extra mile and consider options that I had previously not even considered. To push through barriers, to go beyond… You get the point. VERY motivational and all but you know what I thought…?

Let’s not, and say we did. Clearly this girl (meaning me) is not in the mood for performance. But how can I not be in the mood for living an extraordinary life. I don’t think I am. Can I tell you a secret. I think I’m afraid. I’ve become very, very good at being the ‘quit before I reach the final whistle so I won’t be disappointed if it doesn’t work out’ variety of performance. I stop trying, so I won’t get hurt by failing.

But you know what, quitting and not trying, may just feel worse.