I’m 32 now, I didn’t do my usual it’s my birthday here’s my reflection style post this year. It’s a shame really, I have a fair bit of pondering to do. I’ve changed in these first years of my 30’s. I feel calmer, more confident, more at home. I am happy to stand my ground and to let go quickly. I like calm neutrals more than stark black and white.
In some ways it feels like time. I could be halfway through my life for all I know? Heck it could be over tomorrow. It’s time to set about doing more of what I want to do and less of what I don’t. It’s certainly time to celebrate more, to laugh and take joy from the small things that matter. I feel differently about things. Like things that mattered less than 5 years ago don’t matter that much any more.
I feel changed.
Maybe it’s one of those life cycle things. Maybe it’s the reflective time of this whole Mercury Retrograde thing, but I certainty feel like there are large portions of my old life I can tie off in a bow and say goodbye to. Like a sigh of relief as I wave them off. Then the light streams through the cut outs in my new home and I know for sure that I am where I am supposed to be. How could I not be?
Maybe the biggest change I’ve seen is this thing I call faith. Faith that it’s all going to work out.